Falling

I’m drifting on the edge of perception,
bordering the abyss of deception.

Images…drifting, twirling, swirling,
Where is the truth?
All is disconcerting.

Reality rears its hideous head.
Darkness is my only friend.
Stars twinkle in the night,
my life blinded by their light.

I’m free! I’m falling!
The Earth…revolving….
below…destination unknown.

A hollow being,
the vastness of space,
loneliness atrophies my body.
Only my eyes remain.
Glazed, empty eyes.
Black glass eyes--
the eyes of a drone.
Hopeless, helpless,
more dead than alive.
Contemplating suicide.
But nothing’s left to kill.
Life lost its color
with the destruction
of my innocence.

My essence consumed years ago,
I need to cut myself to know I’m alive.
I am beyond tears.
I’m a lost soul.
I always knew....

Let me go. I’m hopeless.
Leave me to myself.
A lost cause.
My mission—purposelessness,
my prison—my sleeplessness.
I’ve done everything, seen everything. There’s nothing left.
It will always be the same…always.

Perpetual heartache,
cancerous, incapable of feeling,.
no cell could hold my tortured being.
Buried alive in a world I did not design,
memories cluttered with pain.
Faith, hope only comes from deception--
misguided optimism,
misplaced confidence.
I don’t believe in heroes.

While we live, we die.
Each day edging closer to death,
shoved towards the precipice by time.

I know that one day we will die.
We will all die.
True vision is terrifying.

I’m falling, falling…fallen.
Let me die. Let me go.
I’ve had my share.
The ground is my home now.

Come back to me.
I search, but there’s
nothing there.
All gone. Buh-bye.
You said you wouldn’t.
Liar! Thief! Who stole your eyes?
Windows to an empty house.
Barren. Doom. Crash. Fire. Burn.

Sweet catharsis.
Heads about to burst.
I need to get away.
I need to return to dust.

Stop staring at me.
Stop staring at me.
I’m just like you.